Choosing your course in college

Major problem. I am now entering my second year in college, but when I come to think of it, this is not what I want. I know deep in my heart that this is not the right degree course for me. It's out of my interest and it involves things that I really don't like(well, cats). And now, my news feed on Facebook is full of posts from my friends that are shifting to the courses they really want, to their dream campus, and older friends that already graduated from college. All of them, they seem really happy on what's going on with their lives. And here I am, still undecided and unsure of what will happen to me.

What if I got it all wrong? What if I shouldn't have entered this university I'm in now in the first place?

I've considered different degree programs offered in our university- some of them got my attention- but something's just wrong.

"Because I looked around and realized there wasn't one person whose life I wanted."- Ali Rose(Burlesque,2010)

Yeah, I looked around and realized that I am in the wrong place. Yes, I enjoy being here in this university, in this campus to be specific. My friends are here and I had grown to love this place in my one year stay. But I realized that I had been chasing the wrong path all this time.

Follow your heart. Choose what you want and not what others want for you. Just think about how bad will it be when you wake up one day and realize that you are living someone else's  dream.

I hoped I realized this earlier, and I hoped that it is not yet too late. I will do my best this coming semester and will start pursuing what I really want. It will be difficult but I know that it's worth it. Future Achiever!

Before choosing your course in college, ask yourself these questions.

• Is this what you want?
• Do you see yourself in ten years happy and successful in this field?
• Did any person influence you in making this decision?
• If yes, ten years from now do you see that person helping you if everything had gone wrong?
• Are you taking this degree because it leads you on high paying jobs?
• Once in college, do you think you will have the inspiration and motivation to study if none of the subjects interest you?

 

 

Checkmate

A game of chess as it may seem
The love we had a game so grim
It started as an unwanted match
As days passed by in faith we clutch
First you released your weakest pawn
In my face a wide grin as if I won
An expression I made now I regret
Too late for me it was your biggest threat
My next move was a damn mistake
It's like I've fallen in this heartless grave
It was a trap modified for me
Now I'm caught how could that be?
At the moment the game's favor is yours
My knights, pawns are trashed even my horse
But boy you forgot my Mighty Queen
The real game let us now begin
The situation now is a lot different
The victory's mine that's apparent
Table's turned the game is over
Clumsy of you I had been there
So next time boy be very careful
Or you'll again end up- CHECKMATE!

This poem was written for an English project during my fourth year in high school. I'm not going to talk about this poem further, but all I can say is...there's not a single day in her life that she wished she never played the game.

For the man who can't be moved.

Unrequited Love

"The pain of yesterday is unsullied in my memory

 My heart whispers grief for being solitary

 But will I be a traitor of my unrequited love for you?

If my mind screams of a name I blithely knew"

This is an excerpt from a poem that I never had the chance to finish. Uhm, lack of inspiration I guess. Sana matapos ko to. Haha. Siguro kasi pa deep shit at large words ang peg ko dito. So, to whom it may concern(Char!) you're all I neeeeed.

Escape

Remember these days for it won’t happen again

I’m leaving your side as long as I can

As long as it’s only love that keeps us together

As long as the pain is not much to bear

It was a mistake that I kept this for long

I should have done this before everything went wrong

It is senseless for us to keep this going

You may say I’m just afraid so now I’m fleeing

It’s funny how now I’m letting go of you

After the judgment we faced and walls we went through

After we fought just to hold each other’s hands

After it is all well and we had our chance

But these feelings we have will lead us nowhere

It scares me that soon our affection will falter

I don’t want this to end because our love is exhausted

I will settle for ‘what if’ than feelings ended

I must say you’re the best that I will ever have

You may call me selfish and undeserving of your love

You are this one person that I should never had

And you will always be the man that showed me life wasn’t bad

Well I wrote this poem months ago...(oh! I remember the days when I was so head over heels on this person, but it's completely over and accepted now). Anyways at that time when I was writing this...I meant every single word. It was just so sad that we had to end it. But that's how things in this world are, sometimes we just have to let go of people. Not because we want to, but because it will be for the better. Because sometimes, no matter ho hard we try, we can never be their happiness.

Deal with the bad people

No one can ever understand you better than yourself. Even if you tell people the real story(some may listen or pretend to listen),or show them the real you- they will always have something to say or they'll judge you right away.
I had this recent experience with people like that. Well, in college it's a maelstrom of different personalities and attitude so I told myself to be used to it. I thought they were my friends or maybe just someone who will look after me and believe me, but I was wrong. I realized that the advices they're giving me are stuff that will serve they're own benefit. And being the girl that I am, I fell for it. The fake smiles and greetings, ugh! But thanks to them I somehow know how to deal with those kinds of people.. Maybe I just have the luck of learning my lesson the hard way.
So just an advice from me, be someone that you are comfortable being it. And don't let other people's judgement get inside you, because they don't have a single fucking idea who you really are. Don't waste any single moment of you're life trying to please people(unless it's your professor or boss). Believe in yourself. Cheer yourself up. And don't let other people bring you down.

Your Universe

The inspiration.

I'm a huge fan of music but I got the habit of not paying attention to the singer, the title even and definitely the album, but there's something in this that's completely "different". It started with a song that I've been singing the whole time.It's like- stuck in my head. Here's a link (i believe this one has the best sound quality found in youtube) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=64eth_iNoo4 
I can't really explain it, but the song was just....beautiful. So I searched, and found this. Since I have no money yet, I downloaded the whole album through the internet ( I promise I'll be buying an original copy of the album once I had the money!!!) and listened to the other songs and they were all completely amazing. My favorites were "Your Universe", "Yugto", "Antukin", "Start Again" and "Para Hindi ka Mawala". When I listened to this songs, it's like I've found a piece of myself that I lost when I entered college. The girl who believes in true love and the one who fights for her dream. Well to the singer, thanks for making my universe somehow complete again.


Rico Blanco, you are a genius. You're definitely one of the reasons I'll be very proud to brag about OPM.